Monday, 10 February 2014

This side of the curtain

The heaviest burden,
it sits on my back,
I wish I could shift it,
but I haven't the knack.

I know the right words
could give me the key,
but I can't seem to find them,
they don't live in me.

For a practical problem,
I always find a solution,
with emotional chaos,
there's no resolution.

The search for an answer
only leads to more trouble,
I escape from the world
in a fantasy bubble.

I know I should resume
my life in the world,
live my life proudly,
my banner unfurled.

But the burden won't shift,
I can't seem to lift it,
and the fantasy world,
oh! How I'd miss it.

What harm can it do?
To escape in a dream,
but I'm kidding myself,
I know what it means.

The burden's still there,
when I wake in the morning,
it's there in the night,
reality's dawning.

I must wake and face up to it,
one way or the other,
but the right words, they aren't mine,
they belong to another.

If only I could read,
the words in her head,
the words could be mine,
the truth would be said.

But I need to rely
on others to do,
the things that are needed,
and hope they are true.

And I need to escape,
the world in my head,
to put out the dream,
live life in its stead.

Still, which life to live?
The burden still there,
and without the right words,
it'll always be here.

I could find a new path,
there is a way out,
but whether to seek it?
I'm riddled with doubt.

The future in question,
and nothing is certain,
here I am paralysed,
this side of the curtain.

I can have faith in the others,
to do the job that they do,
I've had so much hope,
and gratitude too.

Yet, I've given them time,
and, somehow, trust too,
should I cut it and run,
and say that I'm through?

The future, unknown,
for sure nothing is certain,
I'll just dally a minute,
this side of the curtain.


  1. a very honest write, in my opinion. we are always putting off what we can do today, finding excuses. a thought-provoking poem too.
    and thanks for the visit to my blog. :)

  2. Great poem, very deep. I think we all dally at some point or another. I know I certainly like to get lost in the fantasy pages of a book.

    Love your use of "the curtain" waiting for that action board to clap down.

  3. ultimately we have to decide for ourselves...and while we take the others into consideration, we are the ones that will have to live with the decision...and so we do...

  4. This poem describes the narrator's thought processes so captures how our minds circle and circle, yet reveals the subconscious already knows the answers. I especially like "put out the dream , live life in its stead"....though it important to keep dreams, too.

  5. Yes, sometimes it is hard to find the right words. Sometime I think it is better to just use the words we have and trust that they will get our point across. So true as well that the future is uncertain. There is something new around every bend 'this side of the curtain.'

  6. excellent! we do need somewhere we can escape. the ending metaphor is really powerful.

  7. "The search for an answer
    only leads to more trouble,
    I escape from the world
    in a fantasy bubble."

    Really like this poem and especially this part here that i copied in this comment, i can really relate to this!

  8. I like the honest expression and how the mind moves on.....