Never.

What never was,
it never is,
and never will.

Things I ought not dream of.

Daggers in the Dark

She is brilliant and complex,
and beautiful, it's true.

Her thoughts dance like rainbows through the light,
like daggers in the dark,
like angels on the ceiling.

The whirlpool swings us around,
the savage current tears the air from our lungs,
squeezes our hearts until they will burst,
and then we swing back again,
to the frothy surface,
light and bubbly,
dripping with laughter and wisdom.

A near miss,
but still in the ocean.

Frightening the rescuers with fervor.

Creating new regrets,
and sending them out into the world.
Even the good intentions go sour,
swept up in the landslide.

I had such high hopes.

A helping hand,
I would grasp so tightly,
I'm not sure I could even let go again.

The year of darkness

Missing you,
The light in my life.

With so much time alone to think,
I go to all the dark places,
And can't find my way out again.

The night is never ending,
Without hope,
I'm drowning in it.

I count the days,
Until the close,
Of the longest year of my life.

Let it be done,
And the sun will rise again.

Thank you, for doing what you do.

Thank you,
for being there when you're needed,
when others aren't.

Thank you,
for being who you are,
a paragon,
an example.

Thank you,
for doing what you do,
for doing what you did.

End of a dream

The moment is gone.

The safe haven in the winter of demons,
the fire that stopped my heart freezing over,
the torch in the never-ending night of sorrow,
that was you.

You were there,
and I, a moth to your flame,
hypnotised by your light,
I'd follow you anywhere.

The dreams I had.

But now you're gone.
To where I daren't tread.
A closed door. A wall. An impassable chasm.

I wasn't ready to let you go yet.

I feel like,
I missed another Life,
a life that's full of light.
But it was never really mine,
it belongs to someone else.

Though the winter is over,
and morning broken,
I'm still not there.

All I can do,
is wish you well.
And I do.
I wish you all your dreams,
and love,
I wish you love.

As you wish

Although I said
I would do anything you ask,
Truth is,
I submit my will to no one.

But ask away.
The odds are in your favour,
Today.